Miracles Do Happen

Hello,
     On this beautiful day that we all have not seen before.  On December 31, 2013 unbeknown to us, I would not have insurance in the coming year.  Now every year my husband has to renew on his job.  Thought all was taken care of.  The way we found out, when it was time to be tested again.  It could not be done for lack of insurance.  We all know going through cancer. One can not afford to do that.  The risk of not getting your treatment is great.  I became angry with the insurance company, because did they not understand what this meant.  then I was upset with my husband.  there had to be something that he did not do.  When he called they told him that they needed more paperwork, to verify who I was.  Now one would think that after twenty years there would be nothing to verify right.  They wanted to make sure that I did not have other insurance that could be my primary insurance and his be my second.  Now all of this came about do to the Affordable Healthcare Act, some of you call Obama care.  Now before you Obama haters go get you panties in a wad, listen.  The insurance company told us that it would be three months before they would approve my coverage, crazy right!  By the end of May I was back on the insurance.  Once that happen, I had to make an appointment with the chemo doctor.  test had to be scheduled. We had to find out if the cancer had spread any further.  Like I said earlier, I was angry that this would happen now, like really!  It was not until I became quiet, that I started to get some understanding.  See so many times we say with our mouth that we care for family, friends and people.  We talk about the good that we would do, if only.  When the opportunity comes along and we can do those things that we spoke of, then that is when the truth really comes out.  That is when we really find out who and what we are.  We are a people for the most part willing to do or give as long as it cost us nothing.  If it is on our terms, but that is no great sacrifice.  When you have to give in ways that you are not willing to give.  Then what is truly in your heart begin to come out.  When God begin to show me; me.  I became sorrowful in my heart and I had to repent. All I cared about was me.  See I found out that it really did not matter if others had health care or not.  It did not matter if someone else mother had a fighting chance with cancer.  It did not matter if a father or brother could get care for a heart condition.  It did not matter if a child got a chance to grow up and one day have a family like me.  But when you have to look into the mirror and what you see is not so pretty, and if you really want to be that person that you say with your mouth. Than you will change.  See the chemo was helping but at the same time I was suffering.  My quality of life was not that great and I had been praying to God, please give me a miracle.  Sometimes we don't know if the miracle will come.  If it does how will it come.